So I guess you tagged me Amy.   I dont have any other friends who havent been tagged so I am not tagging any one else.  

 This time it's a photo memeories.
 Here's the rules:
1. go to your documents
2. go to your 6th file.
3. go to your 6th picture.
4. blog about it.
5. tag 6 friends to do the same.

Ok then .. My 6th photo is Makenna Obviously

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This is the night we moved her to her big girl bed. When we first set it up she insisted it was Grammys bed, because my mother used it when she had surgery and had to stay with us for a month. When she realized it was really hers She loved her princess sheets and refered to it as her princess bed for weeks.  The next morning when my mother came to vist she immediatly showed off her bed. 

And I dont have 6 friends who havent been tagged yet

Well Here we are in a new year, I have been avoiding writing on this thing becuase I have been planning on what my New Years goals are going to be *resoultions suck because I just Fail... I am giving it a new name *

So here goes.

1. Spend more time with God.  - I dont spend nearly enough time with God just sitting at his feet and listening and praying.  It is something I have been telling my self I need to do but I never get around to it.. I am always too busy with this or that. 

2.  Learn to be content.  The bible says to trust in the lord and be content with what you have. I find this extreamly hard in this society where stuff is held to such a high standard, and you are only as good as the stuff you have.  At least thats the way my family sees it.  I always want,and I am never statisfied with what I have.  So how I am going to do this I dont know but I will figure it out.  I also need to be content with where I am in my life and who I am.

3.  Work Out.  So I joined a Gym... Now I just need to actually go.   I cant complain about my body and not do anything about it.  and eat better.  I go to McDonalds at least once a week.  That HAS to stop, what a unhealthy waste of money.

4.  Learn to be a better Wife- I can kinda be selfish, I need to learn to meet his needs too not just take.

5. Learn to just live. 

I think that is enough. I think I will work on the body tonight after work. I am half way to the gym. 

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On to another note... Makenna started Dance Class Last week.  She LOVES it... She is attending The United Academy of the Performing Arts in Oneida.  They are wonderful there, and so professional, and most importantly they are affordable.

Her teacher Sandi says she is learning quickly she is like 6 weeks behind, but she is having so much fun.  She even made a few friends Kayleigh and Lauren both three.   Its so nice to not have her home plopped in front of the TV.  We decided to pay for her Dance Classes instead of buying a Nitendo Wii.  It is much better for her, and us.

Why is it when you really dont want to let people down you do anyway?

So today was the first day I have done evening chores since the end of summer when my job changed, and Claude took over doing Chores so that we could get reduced board *for my horse*... So I whent to the barn and was greeted by 4 kids telling me that Sugar broke her leg and was getting put down they were just waiting for the vet. 

So I whent and Checked on Cecilia *the owner* it was her first horse that she got 30 years ago that was being put down.  and  she just asked that I finish with bringing in the horses.  So I rallied the kids to help me bring in the horses. and get the chores done so that Cecilia only needed to worry about Sugar.  after one ashma attack and getting in all the horses, We got them all inside and preceeded to feed the horses... when that was done, I had decided not to put hay out in the pastures becuase the weather tomarrow is suppposed to be rainy and yucky and Cecilia was not there to check with.  So I let the kids know that I would be leaving and if they needed anything to call me and not to ride etc... becuase there were no adults present.  Then I left... as I was leaving I thought I should check the waters, I then dismissed the thought, becuase when you do morning chores you fill the buckets of water as you go so that in the eve the buckets are full, so theoretically the buckets would be full right?

Well I had forgotten my cell phone so i figured I would call Cecilia when I got home to let her know that I did not do the hay but everything was done.  Well I got home and shortly there after Cecilia called YELLING at me becuase the water was not done.  I felt like i was 2 inches tall, I understand that she was upset because her horse just died so any little thing would set her off, but man I felt like a donkey butt. 

I really wanted to help but I ended up screwing up anyway.  I wonder why I even try, I wont get it right anyway. So as I sit here feeling SOOOOO bad that I screwed up I think Merry Christmas to me...  What a wonderful start to my holiday, and tomarrow I will wake up and go to the barn with my tail between my legs licking my wounds for the compleate donkey butt I am, and preceed with morning chores as if nothing happened. I dont even feel as though I have the right to even feel any sympathy for Cecilia's loss.  I so want to say I am sorry for her loss but I feel like too much of a donkey butt to even bother it wouldnt mean anything comming from me at this point.  I really try so hard to make everyone happy and do my best to help people when they need it.u  I wonder why I bother because I will eventually screw it up or fall short some how.

I have to tell you guys this story... So Makenna whent to the Mall with my mother, my aunt and my nephew Jon, and they whent to see Santa... When Santa Asked Makenna what she wanted for Christmas, She said "I want Princesses... You do my nails?"  as she held out her hand to Santa to do her nails.

ok Take three... I deleated the blog almost finished 2x already

Ok So Here is the situation... What are you guy's take... Looks like Carrier is not going to pan out for at least a few months for Claude, and we are looking at very very tight finances... The Creditors have yet to start calling but it is only a matter of time, I am sure. 

I love my job at WTVH 5 but it is only part time and for minimal pay *minimal meaning less than I am used to or need to make ends meet, not minimal like minimum wage*   I like the Doggie Day care but I do not get home till 7pm most nights and it is only 6-11 hours per week for less money than WTVH.  Althougth I love my jobs, there is this sales manager for eagle newspapers trying to get me to interview with him.  I have not searched him out he found me at the Petstore in front of doggie day care, nor did I inquire about jobs there.  He just likes me, says I am bubbly... its true I am :)... Well there is the possibility for me to make much more money than I am making now... 300/week base salary... which is less than what I make now... But 150/wk guarenteed commission for the first 6 weeks till you build up a client base.  So there are possibilities. 

I think I may inquire some more about sales at WTVH... But the question of the time being is should I look at this more seriously to help with the family finances, or should I just sit out where I am and be patient.  I will pray about this but I just wish God would give me a burning bush or Pillar of fire and tell me what to do in an obvious way, none of this still small voice stuff... I want a show!!! I can be kinda thick headed I think it takes more to get my attention!!!... maybe thats the problem God wants me to listen?  Here I go answering my own questions.   Well Girls thats the situation.  What do I do... Do I take another risk hoping it will pan out... Or do I sit and wait patiently while the bills keep adding up... Carrier for Claude may still happen but not for a few months at least... The have a hireing freeze :( so who knows... well that is about it... Let me know what you think.. I love hearing your opinions they help a lot...

I was listening to KLove this morning and after hearing this song I became convicted for some reason or another.  I started singing as though It was actually a prayer. :)... So here you go

I’ve had just enough
Of the spotlight when it burns bright
To see how it gets in the blood
I’ve tasted my share
Of the sweet life and the wild ride
And found a little is not quite enough
I know how I can stray
And how fast my heart could change

Chorus:
Empty me of the selfishness inside
Every vain ambition and the poison of my pride
And any foolish thing my heart holds onto
Lord, empty me of me so I can be filled with You

I’ve seen just enough
Of the quick buys of the best lies
To know how prodigals can be drawn away
I know how I can stray
And how fast my heart could change

Empty me of the selfishness inside
Every vain ambition and the poison of my pride
And any foolish thing my heart holds onto
Lord, empty me of me so I can be filled with You


‘Cause everything is a lesser thing
Compared to You, compared to You
‘Cause everything is a lesser thing
Compared to You, so I surrender all

Empty me of the selfishness inside
Every vain ambition and the poison of my pride
And any foolish thing my heart holds onto
Lord, empty me of me so I can be filled with You

Lyrics may not be reproduced without permission from the publisher.

So after Church today we took Makenna to the "Pumpkin patch" ok behind the P&C a church has a place where you can buy pumpkins so 9 dollars and 2 pumpkins later we headed for McDonalds for nuggies, and then headed home.   after well needed naps we whent straight to carving Pumpkings.  Using the Cool Disney Princess carving Kit we found at Target.  I have come to realize that Makenna is a Girly Girl, she wanted no part of touching the "guts"  which in my mind is the best part.  well I cant figure out how to post pictures its not working so I have to call amy

So as I continue to mourn the passing of my little bit.  This morning came the hardest part of all.  When Makenna asked where Tippy was.  I tried to tell her that tippy whent to go live with Jesus, and be his doggie.  Her response was No.. tippy wants to go to bed.  I tried telling her again and she again told me No that Tippy was  hungery and wanted to go in her crate and eat.  I told her that tippy had gone to live with Jesus.  She then responded Tippy whent to live with Jesus?? I said yes and she has not said anything about tippy since. 

I will miss her, She was sooo tiny, and cute

So Today my little 6lb  Rat Terrier Tippy passed away, after 2 weeks of seziures.  She was such a little Pit Bull.  I rescued her from Wanders Rest.  She was attacked by a German Shepard and abandoned.  She Lit up my world.  She just loved to cuddle, and she really thought she was one of the big dogs.  I will miss my little bit.

Why is it when you try to meet others expectations, or the expectations you have for yourself, you can never live up those expections. 

As a Wife, a Mother, a friend, an employee, or a Christian.  I know why i disapoint people I streach myself too thin.  I try to do everything, and I need to learn to say no.  It seems not to be in my vocabulary.